Emptiness

Why am i felt so empty?

Why am i so lonely?

Why should i care?


Do you ever think why?

(try to take a second to think about it)


It is actually i do not care


Do not care about people around

Do not care about surrounding

Do not care who i am

Do not care what makes me so special

Do not care what my future is


As time pass

People around left away from your memories

Surrounding changing but you still standing at the same place

I'm just nothing

Nothing special about me cause i'm all alone

No more future, cause already in the future


Regret that

I do not ever care father, mother, brother, sister, cousin sis, cousin bro, auntie, uncle

I'm nothing now but all alone, without career, without life

Passed is already a past, there is no return to make things right

Time flies


Most important thing is

Do i ever care about my family

Do i ever take initiative to concern about them


They are not the one to be blame but myself

They are not the one who leave me a side


But


Myself who never ever care about them


I thought only external love could cure my emptiness

It is actually a need to make sure internally from family member


Why don't take a minute to browse through your photo album and have a look

Try to recall back how long you have not

talk to them

visit them

dinner with them

outing with them

care about them

look at them for 5 minutes


I felt miserable when i stare at their photo, i found that i miss out a lot.

A feeling which is indescribable, but i know is a bad feeling


Please don't let the time move without us.

Don't create so much excuse till you regret.


Love is always there to fill your emptiness.